thoughts
may 5, 2025
ive never been more motivated to exist before her honestly. ive always known i was a yearner, someone that dreams and giggles at the promise of a future, but wow. It feels so exciting to think of being with her. I can wish for a date, I can wish for a kiss, and it'll feel met instead of something less than a wish. Of course you'll kiss your lover or hold their hand, but i feel like I was promised the stars.
i dont know how else to describe it honestly. im worried ill overwhelm her but it makes my chest burn to hear she thinks of me too, she THINKS of me, she LOVES me and it makes me feel like im having my first crush. ive never understood romance the best, i think i was stuck in that 'picking the people you like' phase that you get in when you first find out about them or something, but damn.
ive kinda gotten to the point where i might even scare her off, but then thats when i?? find out shes worried about the same thing? and then i find it foolish like, silly goose of course i wont run, and thats so reassuring idk